We're all just breakable girls and boys.

I have a pen in my hand, ready to write you a letter.
Yet i have no idea what to start with.
How is it that i have nothing and everything to say to you?
I try to write, but my pen wont move.
How does one start a letter to someone who they were never even with?
What does one say to someone who claims he likes you, but has a girlfriend?
How does one hide her feelings for someone she shouldn't be involved with?
It's difficult.
I've been doing it for a week and one day now.
It's hell.
I try so hard to smile and stay positive, but I'm done hiding it.
I like you.
That's the first time i have ever said those words for you.
I like you, and you hurt me.
I learned to trust you, after trying so hard to keep my wall up, i just let it fall.
And now, you left me.
I'm not saying you broke my heart, because you didn't.
but you hurt me.
I wanted to be with you, and i thought you felt the same way, but i guess not.
I've always been afraid to care for someone more than they care about me.
It's now happened.
I can't keep acting like it's nothing.
I get that you are leaving, your doing it for you.
but when you leave i can't help but think, you'll be gone, and I'll be alone.
So, as I'm sitting here with my pen, i start to write down the first thing that came to mind.
and the first thing that came to mind, is goodbye.