you ruined me.

A long time ago i swore to myself that nothing would tear me apart like you did.
I would never let myself fall that hard or that fast. i would protect myself from anything that would break me. but that all changed the second i met him. the boy who changed my mind. made me think that letting someone in, and trusting them, may actually work out in some cases. He reminded me of you, you know. always thoughtful, held the door open for me, and did that thing. the thing where you made me smile even when i was so mad at you that i wanted to punch you square in the face. that warm and fuzzy feeling. that feeling of being safe, and being wanted. but it slowly came to an end. and we fell apart. i fell apart..he hurt me, just like you did. he walked away when i needed him the most. he lied. just like you. and although he reminded me of you in some good ways, im happy to say, he's nothing like you. When he came back, he wanted to stay. he wanted to change for me, he wanted me. not just me, but every part of me. my family, my friends. He was there for me. you...you bailed on me. you left me all alone. you made me think there is no such guy out there because their all like you, pig headed and liars. you ruined me, until i found him..