I'm lost

I'm afraid.
I'm scared.
I'm worried.
I'm lost.
I don't want to develop feelings for you. and chances are, i will. I already have. Small feelings, feelings that come and go. But feelings non the less. And this is not a good thing because if i have feelings, it makes this complicated. Which is not what we need. Either of us. So as of now, I'm afraid, I'm scared, I'm worried, and I'm lost. I'm afraid because i never want you to find out. I'm scared that you'll stop talking to me. I'm worried that I'll do something i regret. And I'm lost because i feel like this is all a giant game, and your winning...